But this new adventure has brought up some thoughts and feelings that I had been pushing away for awhile that I needed to deal with. When I started to tell people about this event, I would get insecure and I would feel like the people I was sharing it with were judging me.
I felt like they were thinking:
“Why does she think she can put on a faith based event?”
“She isn’t even that holy… she is such a hypocrite.”
“Why is she trying so hard? She is just doing this for attention.”