From the desk of Grace Lange,
You know that voice inside your head that tells you you are a failure every time you make a mistake…?
Yeah… that’s your crazy woman in the attic.
WHERE IT ALL STARTED
The latest I can remember back to is about 4th grade….
4th grade is the first time I can remember telling myself lies about what people thought of me or how I felt about myself.
It may have stemmed from this boy punching me in the face on the playground (a moment I will never live down)….
But the last time I can truly remember having negative self thoughts was when I can remember first failing.
The voice in my head that told me I was worthless and never going to come back from that mistake is the same voice that is still with me today.
That voice is my crazy woman in the attic of my brain.
She likes to come out when a couple of things happen, but the instance when I hear her the most is when I am “trying to relax” or I choose to take a break.
My entire life I have had the mentality that being busy is better…
That if I wasn’t accomplishing anything in every moment, I was being lazy.
This crazy, obnoxious woman tells me that I am worthless, mediocre, and never going to succeed if I am not working all the time.
It wasn’t until recently that I learned to call this jerk out.
HOW I GET RID OF THIS CRAZY WOMAN
First, I gave this lady a name…
Taylor has this idea that she can tell me that I am not worthy and good when I truly am…
She sneaks in at my lowest moments and brings me even lower, and I had had enough.
After giving her a name, I started to recognize every time she would show up.
I asked myself…
What are you doing when you have the most negative self talk?
After what activity do you feel at your lowest?
I started to call her out!
When I hear Taylor’s negative voice in my head, I tell her that she doesn’t know what she is talking about, and that she is wrong.
SHE IS WRONG ALL THE TIME.
I asked my friends where their crazy woman shows up, and everyone had a different story, but we all had a crazy woman.
Where does your crazy woman show up?
Do you have a name for her?
The most empowering thing you can do for yourself is to stand up against your negative self thoughts.